As this dusty road now settles and I see what lay before, every tear that held a broken dream is now shattered on the floor. And now bursting forth in splendor are the blossoms of second tries because dreams that bear the mark of love are dreams that never die.
Sometimes life can feel so unkind. Sorrow won't define me so just reminds my soul. "Moving Forward," Colony House.
Thanksgiving night, while curled up in bed with Jordan at my in-laws house, Jordan and I continued discussing our thankful list for 2014. Words began spilling out of my mouth that kind of surprised me.
"Yeah, I think that 2014 has been the best year of our marriage."
2014 still didn't bring us a baby.
2014 included spending money on a lot of doctors visits.
2014 included stress, tears, and worry.
But despite all of that, 2014 included joy, adventures, growth, and a lot of love.
I'm coming to realize that every year is full of ups and downs; some years lean more towards one end of that spectrum than others. How we choose to respond to our trials is totally up to us (I'm still working on this one).
2013 was extremely difficult for me, but a lot of that had to do with my expectations. I expected to get pregnant quickly. The blinders that I wore during that disappointment, limited my ability to find any joy. I don't want to live through another year like that. 2014 was much better... I am expecting great things in 2015 even if it isn't anything I plan for because my life is more fulfilling than I ever could have imagined.
Peace be with us as we enter this new year, while still facing our mountains.
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